Jealousy

Jealousy is a very funny term. Envy is milder? Recently I found that I was jealous of my friend. But for a reason you won't believe. I felt jealous of him because his mother is healthier than mine! Isn't it funny? or is it a serious feeling? Almost 5 months since my mother is bed ridden. Even now I am not able to come to terms with the fate or the situation. I even now try to cajole my mother and even fight with her saying why are you bed ridden? She smiles and says it is not her fault. But she was a person who was so mobile. She is young at heart too. Or was.. Because nowadays she feels very dull and sometimes I see tears running on her cheeks and wetting the pillow on which her head is resting. Tell me why we are to undergo such torture of seeing our elders in such a position? Really very sad!